haven't blogged for a long time.. haha

as you all know, i absented myself today.. coz i have sore eyes... *dammit* anyway.. last nigth and today is my senti moment..

wala.. i just broke down last night..

and i feel like crap.. im stuck in an old rot... its like hell boi!! fuck this shit... nakakainis..

it's like your looking for answers sa mga tanong na imposibleng masagot..

last night, i was looking at my former accounts in friendster.. and i read all my past testimonials.. and just by seeing his testimonials to me before.. made me sad again.. and i think its not because i still love him... its just because i just miss the feeling that there's that certain someone who's always there for you.. diba?

being single for me is not a big problem, like for other people.. but when the time comes and  you get attached, to somone you really love, it's just so hard to let go..

when will i have the chance to tell him AGAIN everything that i felt for him and feel for him?

it's soooo complicated.. my life is complicated.. and it's bull....

shiat... now taht we're soooooooo apart.. ang layo na ng agwat namin...

ngayon pa ako gaganito..

bullshit...

*eversincve the day you went awaya and left me lonley and cold.. my life has NEVER been the same..* 

okay.. basically.. my blog is all about my "senti-ness" rar.. well. can't help it! haha!

"kailan.. kaialan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim.. kahit anong aking gawin di mo pinapansin.. kailan.. kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin.. kahit anong gawing lambing di mo pinapansin... "

*yaaaaann.. super appropriate song for him..*

wala lang.. im listening kc to sof's mymp cd.. and i heard the lyrics.. and woahla! hehe.. uhm. actualy, right now, im stuck in a big crap. loads of quizzes tomorrow. periodic exams next wednesday. summative test in math on monday. everything is pilled up mahn! stress is driving me nuts!! i hate it.

school is not just my problem...

well.. my problem is quite predictable.. well..is soooo predictable.... ndi na si "past".. si "present" na.. and i assume my friends know who he is na.. wala lang.. actually, its really not a problem.. parang dilemma lang siya.. i dont wanna exaggerate or anything.. pero im super enfatuated.. yup..i am.. kc he really takes my breathe away.. hayy.. evry word he say's takes my breathe away.. parang im in cloud nine..  haaaaayyy........ ang sarap nung feeling pero, nandun parin yung fact na yun na FRIENDS lang talaga... nothing more.. okay lang.. coz i'd rather risk my "love" for him than our friendship.. diba? coz friends do last forever.. but love doesnt.. :)

yesterday was ena, kit and lexi's birthday celebration... there were 2 venues.. discovery suites and gery's grill, libis.. haha! it was fun in the beginning.. pero nung gabi na, super nakakabad trip na talaga.. hai nako.. it's a very long story.. masaya ako kahapon coz, after a long time of pretending we don't know each other, we finally talked.. naglolokohan ulit kme and stuff.. we agreed on things.. etc.. it was also fun kc, parang ang sarap nung feeling na naguusap na kayo afetr so many months na nagiiwasan, nagtitinginan ng masama and all.. un lang.. and i missed him.. missed him so much.. alam mo, yung parang pag may problema ka, pinapatawa ka niya with his uber corny and bastos jokes.. yung mga hirit niyang walang kwetna.. yung utak niyang napaka labo.. hai.. i just miss the feeling of having him, as a very close friend.. anyway.. i won't deny na meron pa talaga akong 'feelings' for him.. kc meron pa naman talaga.. pero okay narin yun.. kc meron na siyang bagong lovelife, which i support.. and i have my own life narin..

Sa Kanya
by: MYMP

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin


Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya




Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh

Sa kanya.

im happy... really happy.. im happy with my life.. with my barkada.. with my friends.. with my classmates.. and im happy for him.. :)

what's up with you people?!?! my goodness.... i just hate UNCIVILIZED people.. coz they ruin other peoples lives even thoguth those people are not doing anything to them.. thay just can't get their own lives.. tssss.....

this is for you (whoever you are)::

leave US alone.. coz in the first place, we're not doing anything to you.. coz first and foremost, we don't know who you are.. and you are you to call my friend a "user"??? excuse me, our barkada never used anyone.. so you're just wasting your time telling the whole world that she's one.. walang mapupuntahan yun.. coz if someon'es knows her better, that;s us... the MONAMIES.. so you don't have the RIGHT to ruin her reputation... intiendes??

arrgh.. i just hate it..